What is my life’s purpose? What did I come here to do?
It’s been three years since I wrote on this blog. The truth is I got scared. I just froze and didn’t know what to write or what to say even though I feel like a volcano that needs to erupt and I have so much to say! I want to use this blog to find my path and purpose. I want to use it to brainstorm and brain dump; to get my thoughts out on paper and see what is there; and most importantly, to share the journey with you. Right now, I’m at ground zero and ready for a rebirth. I know you are feeling it too.
I am 51 years young. I have worked as a lawyer for 20 years with the last 8 years working as in house corporate counsel for a nuclear power plant. I believe in the power of prayer and dream realization because at the 11th hour (biologically speaking) I married and managed to have two beautiful children in my forties. I have a 10 year old daughter and 7 year old son that I absolutely love and adore. I also have two beautiful step kids; my 17 year old stepson and 22 year old stepdaughter. These five beings made me believe in miracles.
These gorgeous miracles, and a very busy career, have managed to keep me extremely busy. We have bills to pay, college and retirement to save for, and family life to sustain. That’s a big job! And that big job managed to push my dream life and my creative life into the corner. I also blame fear. Who isn’t afraid of being rejected? But I’m letting these things hold me back and life is going right on by. I haven’t allowed myself permission to spend any time daydreaming, playing, conjouring, and creating to help me to re-zero and find my true calling and purpose. Am I really working at what I love? Am I spending forty hours a week doing what I LOVE? Not really. It has elements of what I am good at but it is not my passion. I’m in survival mode for the most part. I’m sure you feel it too. BUT, I’m not done letting my mind roam free to dream some new dreams to add to this rich tapestry of my life. I believe there is another way. I believe there is something else I was put on earth to do and I need to find it. It isn’t necessarily going to find me.
Part of the joy of life is exploring the limitless possibilities for how we can live and work. And it is different for every one of us. I hope you will join me on this adventure. Let’s explore and open up our minds to the infinite possibilities. If the sky was the limit what would you do? Where would you go? Who would you be? What are you seeking? Please share it with me. If you are not comfortable sharing, please just join me. Let’s see where this adventure takes us. 💫
“You can’t stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.” Jon Kabat-Zinn